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"i'll never go"

2005-04-28T00:34:00.000-07:00

i'll never go..waah! ang ganda nung song..(it's for you..haha! only for you!)

"i'll never go far away from you even the sky will tell you that i need you so, for this is all i know, i'll never go far away from you" .......("i love you for this is all i know')

hehe..hmm wala lng..nkkmiss..haha!

argh!..............weird..

2005-04-27T00:25:00.000-07:00

hay..tagal ko na ndi nkkpgpost..hehe.

hmm dami ngyri..nung ngenroll kmi ksma ko mama ko tas nkta ko c ms.marabut..wahh! takot ako kc alm nya ung sa sssslllllaaaaaa!!!!!!!! hehe. eh bka bgla nya kauspn mama ko bout dun eh lgi pa nmn nya chncheck un kpg ngkkita kmi..wehw!what d! hehe! i saw effort ah..hehe!

hay puyatan..grb nung 26-Ü 7am nko nk2lg,d tlga ako mk2lg tas dmi ko tnxt isa lng ngrep ah..excuse me nkktawa kc ngchchat ako nun tas pgtingin ko sa window ang liwanag na tas naabutan pko ng mama ko nung papnta xa sa work..haha! lalo akong ndi 'dinalaw ng antok' nun..hyper! kktawa..kchat ko c bets(ung acct!!bruhilda.jk lng),keds..chaka ib pa..haha! keds kilala mo na c 'TWIST'? haha! wla lng tas gncng ako agd..bd3p..kabangag tlga..hehe!

hmm..naku! pmpyat ako..excse me ang payat ko na nga eh..haha! my fault! minsan kc twice o once nlng ako kmkain..tipong konti..hehe,knina nga nkabantay pa mama ko kc tumatakas ako.haha! shoot! parang bata! wahaha!

nkakaaliw ung moro knna ah..haha!!! hmm.. heheÜ

9! i mis him..haha! i saw his pictures! hmm..haha! sola.kfc.games.car.ust. shoot naku mga moments!!!

weird.HELP! incomplete?alone? hah!!!!! sad.. nlulungkot ako..actually bigla! sad na inis sa sarili..d ko maintindhn..what d! hurt? ha? ewn! weird tlga..dami2 kong iniicp at gs2 gwn..sa totoo lng.. akla ko wala na sa icp ko ung mga gngawa ko dti sa srli ko..pro nttkot nko..bka..argh! wla.. my naiicp ako..hmm! hug!=c hehe. -ha???

wala lng..haba na..

hmm..

2005-04-16T00:40:00.000-07:00

ngpavaccine kmi ng ate ko ngyn..hehe lalng actually dpt ndi ako ssama kc 3 nko n2log tas aga pa umlis..woohoo!hehe. eh naicp ako mgisa lang ako sa bhy tas pnta cla sa mall after nun kya un..haha!
grb..pumayat ako..dko alm kung mtutuwa ako or ndi eh..kc dati ilang days halos ndi ako kumain chaka uminom..mga once a day..hehe. grbe late na pro ndi parn ako n22log..tas mayang 4 alis na kmi agad.. pro kalmado parn ako..madalas..malamang kaya nga umiinom ng gamot pampakalma at mjo pampatulog..(kaye!!!!!) sayang dko nkta c..aun! 9.. tsk!

hmm pro ok ung day na 'to..

no problems. nkpgmove on na kht mjo nffil na may times na malungkot..argh!weird! i hate that feeling! hehe.

what a..

2005-04-15T02:11:00.000-07:00

good day kc i really had fun..im with my barkada..hmm tambay sa katip..ok nmn tas before nun pnta kmi mc hoping na mkukuha ko na ung health project ko..grr pro ndi eh..bbalik pa ako ult..tsk!

mjo bad3p kc my nkita akng d kanaisnais..hmm someone na ndi ko mkakalimutan kc major nsaktan nila ako.. verbally..bahala na sila..

hmm..boring sa bahay..ndi tlga ako mktulog..tas ngloloko ung comp habang my kchat ako..grr! ahh mjo d kapanipaniwala kung cno nkchat ko..lalang..

Ü

2005-04-14T13:23:00.000-07:00

grbe tagal ko ndi nkpginternet..wla lng..hmm dami2 na ngyri skn pro ok nmn..ngstart na ung summer class ko sa moro,umaalis kmi hehe..nd now ok nko, nkpgmove on nko pro ntatakot ako pgngkita nnmn kmi bka mgiba ung isip ckaha feelings ko..argh! bhala na imprtante ok ako kht gnve up na nya ako..hmm pro im still hoping na babalik ung dti samin..pro ayko nlng icpn kc narealize ko i did evrything pro nvr nya naappreciate..mskt pro dti kc reason ko ok lng kc ndi ako ngaask ng kpalit, im doing that kc bestfrnd ko xa pro cgro nga dmtng na ung time na npagod nko..(ung pnkatatakutan ko) pro kht ok nko at tanggp ko na ung ngyri smin..i still love my bestfrnd..oops "ex" pla..hehe.eh forever na ung love ko for her d na mwawala un,my special place xa sa heart ko..lgi!Ü pro msya nmn ako..heheheheÜ

woohoo..

2005-03-23T20:24:00.000-08:00

grabe! i recved a message from my friend..nkalagay dun "cno ba ako sa buhay mo?" tapos my choices:friend,bestfriend,special sum1,love or wla lang tas u can send it to diff. people,after ko nbasa un,isang tao lang pumasok sa isip ko..at un ung ex "BESTFRIEND" ko..gusto ko sna isend sakanya un but i don't want to get hurt because i know what her answer will be,never magiging answer nya un "bestfriend" . at first, i told myself na ok lng,issend ko parn but at the end naalala ko ung cnb nung priest yesterday that i should forget everything to be able to move on and at the end i realized that since i also want to be happy i should also help myself..it's really hard to let go of someone you really love and i will never forget because we had good memories together..it's hard to accept that we can't do things together anymore. sana mkapagmove on nako and be happy but im still hoping for our friendship to be back..and for it to be better..

confession

2005-03-22T21:09:00.000-08:00

hay..these past few days narealize ko that i must move on even though someone close to my heart gave up our friendship..i admit that it's not easy for me to do this,i just can't find the strength to move on with my life and be happy knowing that she almost put me down..ouch!='c feeling ko ayaw lng nya ako mgng friend but my friends are telling me that she just cares for me and got hurt of what i did pro bakit hindi nya ako bgyan ng chance..i always ask that to my friends and to her and she kept on saying that she's not that sure if we can be "bestfriends" again..hmm..sbrng nddown nko until ngconfess nko and told the priest that i almost commit a suicide by hurting myself and i also told him my problem about my "bestfriend",and sinabi nya na dapat ung love ko hindi lang para sa isang tao and habang lumalaki raw ako i will find many friends and find someone better,but for me she's the best thing that came into my life.. he told me that i must move on with my life, enjoy and be happy,just forget her because things like this will really happen and i will find many friends who can appreciate and love me back.. even though it's very hard to accept that she's not meant to be my bestest friend but im still hoping for our friendship to be back again and be better but for now, i'll continue with my life, enjoy and be happy with what i have and with the people who loves me too..it's hard to do all of this and move on but i know that i have to..

Emptiness..

2005-03-21T01:55:00.000-08:00

i miss my "bestfriend".. all i want is for her to be back..as my bestfriend, im still hoping for that even though it's already impossible to happen.. i admit i broke my promise to her but why can't she understand me and give me another chance to prove to her that i will never hurt myself again..i just don't know the reason why she has to give up our friendship..its very unfair for me because even though she hurt me before and ignored the things i do for her, even me, i didn't close my heart for her and i still do good things for her because i want to do my part as her bestfriend but why can't she realize that, i admit,im tired of being hurt,but im willing to get hurt just for my bestfriend,i can't afford to lose her because i will never find someone like her, i only want her to be my bestfriend again..i just love my bestfriend..and now,i kept on blaming myself on what happened,i cant accept that i lost one of the special people in my life,the very special and important friend..i'll always love her..

and now, i just don't know the purpose of changing if she's not here..